Anyway, January always starts bad for me. I celebrate each year the birth- and death-day of my only son, Ben on January 10th. He died because of a medical error by my gynecologist. Tonight I will light a memorial candle for his 19th birthday.
I made a scrapbook for Ben with the few ultrasound pictures and photos I have of him, I draw and paint and it helps me putting it in place. This drawing I made in 1999.
and this photoshop/bryce work I made in 2008. It is inspired by psalm 23, the Lord is my shepherd, which was read by rabbi Soetendorp at Ben's funeral and is very special to me.
THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD
The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want;
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters;
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
for His name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil;
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life;
and I shall dwell in the house of the
yehi zichro baruch - יהי ברוך זיכרו
May His Memory be a Blessing