January blues

We had a big lightning hit on Friday night and I didn't have internet since and it's been back only for an hour or so, after my modem has been fixed. All the computers at home are ok, except Yael's laptop, which all though switched off, had a battery charger plugged in to the power. I think it's totally dead. It was our newest computer, as she got it for her bat-mitswa in june 2009.

Anyway, January always starts bad for me. I celebrate each year the birth- and death-day of my only son, Ben on January 10th. He died because of a medical error by my gynecologist. Tonight I will light a memorial candle for his 19th birthday.

I made a scrapbook for Ben with the few ultrasound pictures and photos I have of him, I draw and paint and it helps me putting it in place. This drawing I made in 1999.

and this photoshop/bryce work I made in 2008. It is inspired by psalm 23, the Lord is my shepherd, which was read by rabbi Soetendorp at Ben's funeral and is very special to me.

THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD

The Lord is my shepherd,

I shall not want;

He makes me lie down in green pastures.

He leads me beside still waters;

He restores my soul.

He leads me in paths of righteousness

for His name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley

of the shadow of death,

I fear no evil;

for You are with me;

Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

all the days of my life;

and I shall dwell in the house of the

Lord forever.

Psalm 23

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yehi zichro baruch - יהי ברוך זיכרו

May His Memory be a Blessing

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